Day 61: 03.02.17

Alright. As mentioned previously, I would also like to share thoughts on my current fandom here. Of course I had my outbursts in Twitter already, but the more organized thoughts will be composed here. So this will still be about Maymay and Edward, the ship I’m following now from Pinoy Big Brother.

After winning the task to have seven people into the Big Night instead of the usual four, Kuya challenged the house mates with a Lie Detector Test. The challenge was open for anyone willing enough to be grilled and be judged with a machine. Meaning, there was an option not to go through it. Except for a set of housemates, everyone took the challenge. Yes, including Maymay and Edward.

Even before the actual airing, there previews showed Maymay being asked if she has feelings for Edward. To be honest, I found this question to be very invasive and a little too annoying already. I mean, I’ve had this issue of leaving Maymay alone with her thoughts and feelings for Edward. She’s not ready to say anything and I’m sure she has valid reasons not to admit anything, even if her action speaks otherwise. I guess, as a fan, I don’t want her to have a difficult time with Edward if they somehow become awkward after that. I don’t want them to be awkward with each other!

One of the reasons I love Maymay and Edward (as MayWard, whether romantic or as frinds) is that they have a special connection that everyone can see and feel, but we’re always left in the dark to question what is really there. There is thrill in not knowing everything, in knowing that there are some things that will be special only for the both of them. But as they have submitted themselves to Big Brother, people are open to interpret what they see and insist on their opinions, which the network is obviously banking on right now.

So this is the video of Maymay’s Lie Detector Test, which is actually not by a machine, but by the ex-housemates. Not a bad thing since intuition is so much better than any machines. My mom said that LDT machines are not accurate because if you get nervous just because of the question, you can get negative result even if you are telling the truth. So in my opinion, this is a better option. Besides, who else would know better than the people who’ve they’ve been with all these time?

So in the end, Maymay admitted that she has a “crush” on Edward. Haha! I feel that it’s already more than a crush, but she’s really making an effort not to mind the feeling so much. Maymay knows her priority and she is driven by her goal to be a Big Winner (without being plastic and pabebe ha, mind you) for her family, so romantic love has to wait.

Moreover, I think she’s still recovering from heartbreak over her 3-year relationship, so of course anyone would be hesitant to fall in love again. That’s why she said she’s scared. She’s scared to get hurt and that’s one very telling statement that she is still on the process of moving on. When she said, “Kung sasabihin ko pong gusto ko siya, gusto ko buo, hindi lang dahil love team ko siya.” I didn’t understand it easily. Fast forward to readings and other observations, what she meant was she didn’t want to say she likes Edward because she’s being swayed by her emotions at the moment. Which is actually really smart of her! They were inside the house, they always interact with each other, people always tease them to one another, they are being groomed as a “love team” by the network, and she’s still longing for that love she lost. Maymay doesn’t want to make Edward a rebound or a mistake because she treasures him and their friendship. That’s what she means by loving him whole-heartedly, romantically.

Despite this girl always being transparent with her emotions, she’s actually really smart. She’s emotionally intelligent which I think contributes to her creativity as well. Charming, charming lass.

The LDT had more questions about self-image (pagpaparetoke), thoughts on fame, comparisons to others, family issues, and genuineness in actions. Same topics with different set of questions were given to all the housemates, but out of everyone, Maymay was the only one who was able to make the nerve-wracking experience light and funny without lessening the seriousness and honesty of her answers.

Now, onto Edward’s LDT!

If there’s something I was thankful for this LDT is the chance for Edward’s side to be heard regarding Maymay. Since I have no boy experience, reading Edward is a bit of a challenge. I know he is very smart, he’s eloquent, he is wise beyond his age. He is sincere, but of course, we all have something we will conceal.

Of course, like Maymay, he was also asked about his feelings for her. However, the question started with if he found Maymay beautiful. I think this question was asked, so that Maymay’s bashers can shut up. I wasn’t in Twitter for MayWard until January, so I wasn’t aware that a lot of people had been bashing Maymay for being “pangit”. Again, as I said before, she is not. Her beauty grows on you, and when you start seeing it, it will stay beautiful and glowing every day.

So Edward basically broke the hearts of these bashers when he affirmed that he finds her pretty. The LDT agrees. What I found a bit odd was that it took a while for him to answer, “yes”. Either he was thinking if he was going to lie, or he knew where the question was leading to. This kid is very perceptive, so perhaps he was weighing in his mind if he was ready to admit whatever feelings he wanted to keep hidden for a while, if the choice was his. In regards to his answer, I initially was skeptic of it, but looking back, this boy was raised to be a gentleman, and he does not discriminate.

Way back during their edition, he said he wouldn’t mind dating a girl like Maymay because there’s nothing wrong with her when one of the housemates sarcastically used Maymay as an example of a girl Edward would dare go for in place of pretty blondes which he had liked in the past. I believe he frowns more on bad character than physical attribute. Maymay undeniably has a very admirable personality that compliments his, which he could be initially have been attracted to.

Later on, he was asked if he was physically attracted to her. He said yes, being a person of taste, who would miss admiring that face, the S line, and not to mention, the long legs! There was a clip during their Teen edition when Maymay and the other girls were practicing their walk for a beauty pageant task. When Maymay walked with her heels, clad in a short, denim skirt she normally would never wear (she’s more of a leggings, pants kind of girl), Marco and Edward high-fived on the side then continued to look at the girls or Maymay. So there goes your easy question.

His analogy about Maymay’s best quality is how he perceive her strong personality, the rawness of it as being beautiful. That in a world where people conceal to hide their ugly selves, she’ll proudly parade it because that’s how true she is to herself.

Of course, he was asked if he had feelings for Maymay, too. He said, “It depends on what way. Yes.”

Alright, I was kind of taken aback by this because I know Edward could’ve answered it sarcastically. Feelings of friendship, of family, romantically? It depends on what way, right? But alright, a Twitter user said that the questions depends on the context anyway, so Edward, being smart, would know what Toni meant with the previous questions and emphasized by the follow-ups which were about what he plans to do with the feelings or if he’s going to pursue her. So, if Edward was actually being sarcastic or telling the truth, well, the wolves are eating his bait as of now.

Still, I’d like to believe that he really likes her. Perhaps as a crush or a little bit more than that. He is infinitely fonder of her than anyone in the house, especially when Dream Team began. Perhaps, like Maymay, he might be being swayed by the pairing they are being pushed into, the confinement, the comfort, etc. He has no plans, like Maymay, what to do with the feelings because it is not his priority right now, he doesn’t know if he’s going back to Germany, or what could happen to the feelings after PBB. Like Maymay, he’s playing it cool for the both of them because he treasures her as much as she does him. So in this case, tama nga. MU na nga sila. 🙂

Other questions for Edward were if there was ever a time he became wild (I was not surprised he has punched someone before. Edward’s demeanor is kinda scary when serious, thus, he fit the military leader position so well), if virginity mattered to him and if he was still a virgin, if he has cheated, and being linked to another housemate (to question sincerity to Maymay). All of these he answered without batting an eyelash. Alright, perhaps he really is an open-book after all.

So after the LDT challenge was over, I was kind of worried that Maymay and Edward will be awkward with each other, especially the girl. Maymay not only admitted to Toni and the world she likes Edward, it was also a personal admission which I think shifted her world a little bit more. Anyway, they seemed fine later on, so that was a big relief. We’re just wondering if they have talked or not.

UPDATE! (As of 3.11.2017)

MayWard are out of the house! Yes, the big winner had been announced as you know. So of course, the videos are also out! Maymay now knows about Edward’s answer during the LDT. She said she didn’t know about it until then, so she can’t help but feel “kilig”. However, she also clarified they never talked about it. Edward was asked about his feelings again and he gave a definite, “Yes, sure. Yes!” Since words are unreliable, I will depend on the way he smiles, his eyes twinkled, and the little blush that crept his face when he said this as clarification.

They are as crazy together based on off-cam and BTS moments and videos. No awkwardness kahit inaasar pa rin sila ng mgat tao. Whatever happens, I will support these two beautiful beings, and I hope that no matter where their feelings for each other take them as friends or as lovers, they never lose connection.


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