Day 025 – 2018.25.01

Over and out, Daddy 😔🎈


Day 024 – 2018.24.01

Sleep is for the weak for people attending the last day of a wake. I’ve been up since 7 AM for work and went straight here.

Along the way, to kill time and avoid sleeping, my cousins and I had an intense game of unggoy-ungguyan. It’s a simple card game of finishing your deck of cards through getting pairs. To complete the pairs, you’d have to chance upon it from the player next to you by randomly picking a card from their deck without you seeing it. A player is bound to have one card without a pair as from the beginning of the game, one card is hidden which is the “monkey card”. So whoever gets the pair of the monkey card, loses.

Unfortunately, I was the monkey the second round. And my idea of putting lipstick on the monkey as punishment backfired on me.

Well. Not like I ever cared about image hahaha. So when my duty to buy groceries was needed, I basically dragged my younger bro and nephew who were also losers and lipstick-stained like moix, well, as they say: YOLO!

Day 022 – 2018.22.01

So, my brothers have left me with my dad in the funeral chapel. Which is okay, right Dad? We’re kind of used to this anyway. I mean, we have that bonding moment at the hospital and it was like this: me sitting a few feet away from him and him sleeping. Only this time he’s never gonna wake up nor ask me to annoy the service of nurses, etc.

Shit. It’s heart-breaking.

On the other hand, they need to fix my dad. I mean, he doesn’t look like him! He’s not gonna like this, not at all. My dad looks more handsome than that, okay?

Shit. (I’m gonna start crying.)


Since I’m left alone to watch over him (it’s a strange tradition), I watched a movie to pass the time. Like, The Way He Looks, I discovered this movie through Youtube clips. I think it’s from a top five list of European gay coming-of-age movies. Yay for coming-of-age! Yay for gay movie! Yay for hot actors! And…. *drumroll* It’s Norwegian!

Seriously, after Skam, I wanted to hear more Norwegian in my life, so this is a feat. And I’m officially changing my NO to NEI. LOL

Anyway, the movie is titled The Man Who Fell In Love with Yngve. It revolves around the life of Jarle who is happily performing with his up and coming band with his best friend and a supportive, cool and beautiful girlfriend. Things change upon the arrival of the new kid, Yngve, whom he develops feelings for. He pursues him, but does so without thinking of others which results to neglecting his band, his friends, his girlfriend, and even his family.



This was a 2008 film, so it’s pretty old, and I like the toned-down colors, even if the weather seem to be bordering on depressing. I’m not sure how Norwegians can hangout like the chill of the snow doesn’t bother their asses, but okay. Haha! There’s a band, awkward romance, and a crazy, but lovable best friend, so this works out well for the rom-com genre. Although we kind of lose that spin by the second half of the movie when Jarle wakes up to his reality. I kind of appreciate that because even though I cringe for the mistakes of Jarle, his flaws make him all the more relatable, especially when you’re young, dumb, and broke. The wake up call might’ve been too much, but don’t we all hit a hard wall when we become too blind of our own desires?

Caution, caution, caution.

There’s plenty of pairings that can go on here. And even though there’s a gay angle to this, I can’t help but like Katerine too.  But of course, the way Yngve and Jarle stare at each other seriously reminded me of Isak and Even. Even the way they interacted from the start! There’s those daring, lingering stares and secret meetings that makes up their own little world. EMERGERD! Yngve looks like a prince, a beautiful blond doll, and Jarle looks a bit like a young Heath Ledger with ginger hair. There’s also the bromance boardering true love with the way Helge comes on to Jarle. Their first time meeting also reminds me of Isak and Even when they were smoking in the apartment and shared about their taste in music.

At some point, I began thinking if Skam was patterned after this show. But I guess not. *shrug* And apparently, it’s a book! Unfortunately, despite being multi-translated to different European languages, English is not one of them. It would be great to go through this story from Jarle’s point of view. I’d love to discover how he describes his infatuation with the beautiful Yngve.

All in all, it’s a good movie. Quite a sad ending, but quite satisfying too. Yngve and Jarle together would’ve been great too, but I think as characters, and realistically, they need personal fixing first, which I think the movie offered to the audience by the end of it.

4/5 🌟

DAY 021 – 2018.21.18

For some reason, I am very chatty today. Like, online-chatty.

As I’ve mentioned before, I’m not very good with chats, so I’m thinking of erasing OK Cupid for good in a few week’s time if nothing fruitful comes out of it.

Well, now I have a better technique in approaching chats which is to comment on their profiles. Like if there’s something there that intrigues me or if there’s a common denominator, it doesn’t make me so hesitant to reach out anymore.

Today, I’m kinda trolling someone. I mean, I feel kinda sorry for him, but he’s going the sexy way, I’m in a funeral, and it doesn’t click. Well, even without the funeral, I’m still not comfortable with it. So instead of giving him serious answers (that might excite him more the wrong way), I just go around with it. On the other hand, he confessed that he’s bi-curious! OMGGGG!!!

I was basically in fujoshi-mode when we were talking about that and cheering for him to make-out with his gay neighbor he wanted also in the first place. LOL.

I’m not a prude, but I just don’t find sexy, flirty talk a turn-on. I mean, there’s probably a certain level of comfort to the person I need for that to be a comfortable topic for me. Sorry, dude.

Day 020 – 2018.20.18

As I wanted to stay away from the heat of this day, I stored myself in a bookstore instead.

Since I was there for two hours and I basically finished reading a whole book, I opted to return the kindness and purchase a product. After all, I still had a gift card, so guilt free with the expenses!

I’m not into Science fiction, but I really found the creativity of Douglas Adams amazing and humorous. I liked the movie, but let’s see whether this book will be shelved and categorized as hoarded or as favorite.

Or, well, at least read.

Anyhow, the Family Day event at school was a success, so congratulations, work fam! ♥

Day 019 – 2018.19.01

Recently, I’ve been busy interacting with strangers through a PenPal app. So far I’ve talked to different people from different countries about various topics.

On the other hand, I’m sharing thoughts with this really interesting Pinoy. He kind of sounds like those Pinoy writers I read, and his ideas kind of sync with mine. 🙂 Also, started corresponding with this Russian guy (again) and I like how he sound so far. 🙂 I’m learning about Estonia and Cyprus from two female chatmates too!


Day 018 – 2018.18.01

I did cry.

It’s so weird to pick up my dad around the airport and not have him wait for us with his many bags and boxes he worked so hard to fill for everyone’s satisfaction. He would usually beam up despite the exhaustion of a long flight, hug us very tight because he missed us so very very much. And he was happy at the moment, especially because he was so so lonely there.

Instead, it was painful for us to pick him up inside a big box with him lying inside a casket. He worked hard his whole life, but he never wanted to end up inside those big boxes like that.

Nonetheless, as we always say: Welcome home, Daddy.

Day 017 – 2018.17.01

We’re trying to be positive with that money problem, thinking there just might be a glitch somewhere in this whole program of our lives at the moment. We’re troubleshooting, and hope some steps in the wizard can suggest us a good option for the problem if not the solution.

Tomorrow, Dad comes home.

I’m not very excited to see him, but I want him to be finally home.

I’m sure I’m going to cry. I want to cry.

And I’m still sorry. Still so so sorry.

Day 016 – 2018.16.01

I think cold water was suddenly splashed on me when I read my brother’s message this afternoon.

Basically, it’s a problem about money. Something that I’ve always stressed about.

I mean, I’m middle class and it’s not like we don’t always have money. But it’s this continuous struggle of emotions between the abundance and the lack of it that keeps me frustrated. Of course, I sound kind of insensitive to the poor who probably would love to switch places with me if having money is my problem, but of course it’s not that simple. It’s like being given cotton candy and getting used to it, then have it snatched from you. Then they give it again, then snatch again, then give, then snatch.

It’s emotionally scarring. (err, lol)

Anyhow, I think we’ll be in debt for the next three years, so this might be the true push I need to pursue that abroad plans. Not for experience only this time, it’s for my family.

(How MMK!)