Day 258 – 2018.15.09

Uhhhh… so I’m not really sure how things spiraled to us being in a gay bar again when all I suggested was karaoke.

T_T

Anyhow, my friend got engaged today!!! It was sooooooooooooooo so nice! It’s the first time I witnessed a proposal and it was so heartwarming. It’s a big, big step for a couple and I really hope that these two continue to love and care for each other.

On the other hand, was a guy in the bar making eye-contact at me? Or did I just catch him looking straight to my direction and he actually likes someone else? LOL. But since I’m a freakin awkward person when it comes to meeting with stranger, my eyes definitely diverted at the speed of light.

So throughout the night, he was not looking at me anymore, but I kind of hope he did again, so as always, I just looked at him from behind.

It was nice but kind of strange at the same time especially because I’m thinking their whole group is a bunch of gay guys. So. Ermm.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaand.

An annoying kind making lame passes at me and asking for my Facebook address.

SHUT DOWN FAST.

Is this going to be my line of history with guys? I’d rather be in a relationship with myself. hahahhahaha

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Day 257 – 2018.14.09

Laaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy day. School was suspended because of the threat of typhoon. And as I predicted, it is nowhere in the metro now. I’m fine with suspension, but you have to admit that there’s a lot lost in a day without any work done.

Anyhow, I’m considering this Friday as my Saturday, the no-work-related day. I promise to read something related to work (because last time my reading really helped me with my kids) and find a new part-time job!

I also revisited SOTUS the Series today. I am still apprehensive about new drama because they all seem so inferior to this series which gave me everything I like (less cheese, just fluff). I’ve done this with “It Started with a Kiss” and “They Kiss Again” and it’s nice to revisit the story because then you’re watching with fresh eyes and the small, important details are much easier to spot.

For example, Kong definitely started liking Arthit on the day one of the freshies hyperventilated. He probably liked Arthit already from the time of their first meeting (which was revealed in the end of season 1), but by the time he was already being hazed, this feeling shifted between being infuriated (his personal beliefs was challenged), intrigued (of the system, of Arthit’s logic), and fondness (there’s a thin line of fondness and dislike to someone who picks on you, isn’t there? Abuse is different, okay? That’s for bullies. Arthit doesn’t bully), and it evolved again, in summary, as liking the guy which I think came into full circle by the time he was given the orange.

See? More analysis! I love it. Alright, will continue watching now. ❤

Day 256 – 2018.13.09

Frame x Book is ❤

I decided to pursue watching “Make It Right” for Fuse and Tee, but I eventually immediately abandoned ship because Tee is too passive and Fuse can’t function as a proper human being deserving of a mature relationship. It’s a happy ending for them, so…erm…good.

Anyhow, Frame and Book was re-introduced in season 2 as already an established couple and have been living together. We see Book as more sociable, especially he extends the effort to be in good relationship with Frame’s friends (who are oblivious to their relationship, or they just don’t say anything) and he’s more relaxed in the relationship as he openly addresses jealousy and his thoughts, as well as return the physical affection to Frame.

On the other hand, Frame has abandoned his Cassanova acts, he stays him more (because he’s clingy to book who likes to stay home too), and he’s studying more (his boyfriend is his personal tutor). Gone are the days when sex was a hobby or something to pass the time, but it has become a mission for him to keep Book happy by proving loyalty as well as serving him in anyway he can (like cooking and cuddling him, awww~). I like how it’s apparent from the beginning that being together did both of them good. They already grew so much in the span of two months.

From Season 1, Book already gave me this impression that there’s something lingering in his past thus he’s isolated from his parents, he seeks sexual release (more when he’s stressed) from random guys in areas far from his house, and he always seems conscious of his surroundings, thus his choice to keep a small world to himself, at home or in school. Season 2 expounds on this impression. Apparently, Book had a bad rep from his previous school due to a leaked sex vid with his then boyfriend. It’s particularly traumatic for him especially he was outed by force, he was betrayed by his partner as he agreed on the basis of love, and he was ousted by his parents to another school so as not to “shame them” further. From the looks of it, he never healed from the experience because he was never given support, mentally or emotionally. Season 2 re-opens the experience for Book. And for whatever trauma and emotional torture it induced again, it was necessary for his healing. This is where we appreciate Frame even further.

Frame, like his name indicates, encloses care and love for Book.

I already appreciated Frame from Season 1 because despite being a playboy, his sexual adventures is mainly for pleasure, we don’t see anyone coming after him because they were emotionally manipulated or given false hope. Basically, Frame has a clear distinction of the body and heart. This tells us that though he’s promiscuous, he’s not a heart-breaker. In fact, his relationship with his friends and the small flashbacks of him taking interest in Book subtly shows that he’s a nice guy. For whatever reason he did not pursue Book at school, he was probably respecting the guy’s boundaries. Thus, when he fell in love and his love was reciprocated, he pour all his affection and care for Book, so during the entire season 2, Frame continued caring and protecting Book, especially during the storm of Book’s past.

Though only in high school, Book and Frame’s love and relationship remains grounded in reality. Sex scandals has happened in the past and we can only wonder how they are handled by those involved and affected by such. Their relationship shows the trials that people in a relationship can potentially fall in, and it’s up to them if they are willing to stay in it or not, especially during trying times.

My favorite scene of the series is in episode 13 when Book and Frame were talking by the pool. Book confessed that he had always had a crush on Frame because of his easy-going personality and charm, but he never did anything more because he was unsure of the guys sexuality. Frame, on the other hand, becomes very serious, declaring that he wants to marry Book in the future, to grow old with him. I have to give it to Ohm (actor of Frame), for delivering such lines smoothly. There wasn’t any drama in the way he said, in fact, it was just casually, in a matter-of-factly way, but with such conviction that I’m sure Book was blown away despite fear and doubt about their future.

I really want to see more of this couple, but alas I think MIR is only up to here. Maybe they can make a stand-alone series for them? Tee-hee.

Beautiful story, beautiful couple.

Day 255 – 2018.12.09

Meeting with UN Parents – success!

The very first school event of the year is (un)fortunately in my hands, so I’m doing a lot of work for it. Compared to other events I’ve managed as a coordinator, the job is heavy in coordinating with parents about what we want to achieve for the kids. There’s the limitation in communicating with parents directly this time, so a lot of the announcements and decisions have to be made and planned ahead of time because everything should ideally be done within school/business hours.

I think so far, my partner and I have made great progress in laying out the structure of the one-week event to the participant parents, as well as the teachers of our community who would be helping out, so I hope everything goes well up to the week-long event. Of course, I’ll be realistic and expect to meet some bumps on the road along the way, but I am hopeful that we’ll be able to overcome it without losing too much hair or growing zits due to stress.

Aja!

Day 254 – 2018.11.09

*sigh*

Comparison is not a great way to enjoy a story, but I couldn’t help but find too glaring similarities of Make It Right to the production of Love Sick Season 2. Yes, I’m particularly damaged by LS 2 because LS 1 was gold I found out of nowhere and introduced me to the Thai series world. Also, the production was good, despite the awkward acting of the young actors.

Day 250 – 2018.07.09

“U-Prince the Series: Brian (The Ambitious Boss)” (Thailand drama, 4/5 stars)

I mainly watched this drama because I’ve found Mook very cute from TeamGirl episodes with Krist and Singto, and the trailer was pretty funny. There’s March and Off, storyline with a Mafia and the comedy seems on point.

Well, everything good upon watching the four episodes, it’s just…the ending.

Acting wise, Mook, March, and Off were great. I’m not very familiar with Off and Mook’s acting background, but I’ve watched March in Hormones and I think another movie or drama, so I can bet for his acting. Especially, he seems to do well with this kind of cool, a bit brash, but totally caring character, and he’s just oozing with charisma anyway. Mook might as well be a sister to Qiang Xin of “It Started with a Kiss” and “They Kiss Again” because their stupidity and idealism when it comes to love is of the same level. If ever there would be a Thai adaptation of Itazura no Kiss, Mook should do this character without a sweat. I only knew Off from Sotus as the funny and outgoing P’Bright and I know him to be of the same personality in real life, so seeing this hot-headed, serious role for him is very fresh for me. Not to mention, he fits in it so well.

As I mentioned, the comedy is on point, especially the banters between Mantou (Mook) and Brian (March), and even between Mook and her right-hand henchman (his name is too long to remember!), but sometimes the slapstick is dragging. For example, that gang scene with Lenny in episode 2 or 3 could have been shortened. It was more like a filler because it didn’t really contributed as much to the development of the plot. Whether that point was stretched out or not, the outcome would have been the same anyway.

Nonetheless, I’m happy that there was character development, particularly in Mantou. Like Qiang Xin, her idea of a dream guy is someone her mind has curated over the years. She felt that she loved Li Tang (Off) more than Brian when he confessed (even though her hesitation towards Li Tang’s advances is already a clear sign she has looked another way already) more than when it was Brian because her mind told her: “This is it, girl! You got the man of your dreams! Take him!” But upon dating, she started realizing that he did not like her for who she was and was gradually molding her into someone he himself idealizes. Both of them had an idea of love within their relationship together, but failed to see the reality until someone (Brian) stepped in (even though he actually walked away at that point). So her finally realizing this and thinking more of her development as a person (studying!) was great. She accepted that she was slower than everybody else so she had to study much earlier than other students, that love and marriage can wait, and as Brian commented, she eventually may forget the two of them as her studies will come first.

So I know that I’m all for character development, but I just feel so sorry for Brian! All he did was help Mantou out of her bubble from Li Tang, pursue her because he has loved her since they were young, get Li Tang’s ass out of trouble from other gangs, and actually put some sense into Mantou regarding looking beyond the idea of love and put more thought into her self worth. After all that, and Mantou already breaking off with Li Tang, in the end, she still said that she’ll chose between the two guys. WTF ate gurl?! I think I would have been happier if she picked Brian to wait for a year and gave him that freedom to evaluate if he would still pick her too after her transformation. Li Tang, I think, also developed as a character, but even out of the frame, that was understood.

Haaay. So yeah. The last episode seemed rushed too, so that was kind of a bummer. Anyway, for entertainment, 4/5 stars for this mini-drama. 🙂

UPDAAAATE!!!!

I missed a last episode wherein Mantou finally cleared everything with Li Tang and chose Brian. Brian stalking Mantou throughout the year just like Mantou stalking Li Tang before was a cute table-turning element.

5/5 ⭐ now! 😆

Day 249 – 2018.06.09

Still on a hunt for a new good series to watch, preferably from Thailand since I’m digging their shows and culture now, and I think some of the U-Prince series and this “Make It Right” would be a good pick.

I already browsed through “Make It Right” and I think Fuse and Tee look good together, and they act pretty well. I’m not so sure about the storyline, but it seems to have an element of “Together with Me” there which is drunk bros sleeping together then the aftermath of that.

I just wish that like in Sotus, there’s just one or two couples to focus. The problem I have with BL series in Thailand is there seems to be a need to have multiple pairs, thus multiple plotlines for each. In Sotus, especially in Sotus S, although there’s the addition of Tew/Day and P’yong/Nine, they just show interactions and some small drama as they are directly connected to Arthit and Kongpop, but majority of the storyline revolves around the main pair. There is a clear distinction of who the story is about.

Anyway, fingers crossed for this lakorn.

Day 247 – 2018.04.09

A friend reminded me that we have signs on buses regarding giving priority to pwds, the elderly, and pregnant women, but when commuters are hoarded with stress every morning and their only escape from that is being busy with their phones, do they have time to look up, read, and even consider. Usually, no. So I answered this, speaking as a teacher who has to deal with different learning styles in one classroom:

mali pa grammar eh lol *on walls

But yeah, most often than not for adults, the obvious, more straightforward method works for our stubborn attitudes.

Day 244 – 2018.01.09

So my mom’s doctor has two temporary diagnosis based on her lung CT scan: either it’s tuberculosis or something else because there’s a mass under her lungs.

*sigh*

It’s this again.

How many times have I been haunted by hospitals, the frequent visits, the laboratory tests and waiting, the undetermined findings? However, if it’s stressful for me, what more for Tita, Daddy, and Mamoy who I accompany regarding their health.

My mom is very strong and she rarely shows weakness (I got it from her), but I’m sure she’s very stressed about this. I would be, and I’d be very scared.

Anyhow, the doctor said that if the result of her phlegm shows that she has TB, the endoscopy plus biopsy of the mass doesn’t have to happen. She’d be referred to a center nearby and TB is mostly cured in 6 months. Now, of course I’d be sad to know if my mom has TB, but between that and a scary mass that we have to pay 100k just for the biopsy alone, and she needs to be in fasting for 8 hours while awake, which is a lighter choice? I can’t even wish that she’s not sick because she obviously is, so… *sigh*

My wish is that my mom reaches an age where she is satisfied of her life. I may not be able to marry and give her grandchild, but I wish she can enjoy her senior life traveling to new places, experiencing new things, living the life she has worked on so hard for so long. I’m not sure if I’ll live as long as her (because there’s always that possibility too), but I’m going to sacrifice my good karma just so my mom can be healthy again soon.

Day 243 – 2018.31.08

It’s quite amusing how alien it feels already to be in the company of my old 4s/5s babies with their never ending stories over lunch. It’s only been a month, but being in the company of the less verbal babies in the 3s, these 5 year old kids are speaking at the speed of light!

The lovely thing is though, I can feel that they missed me as they basically crowded on me during lunch time. ❤ I missed these kids too, of course!

Anyhow, on the down side, I’m getting anxious about my mom’s condition. I always try my best be there with her during medical check ups because 1) she’s already in her senior age, 2) she’s the only parent I have left. She’s the parent I am closest to, and she’s the parent (even when my stepmom and dad were still alive) I am most afraid to lose. Just thinking of my mom gone is making me feel down. Of course, I know the source of my suffering, but 30 years of attachment cannot ever be flattened by mindfulness alone. Love is practiced over the years.

So we’ll be going to the hospital tomorrow to meet a pulmonologist. I hope there’s nothing seriously wrong, but I just want to be there to be of assistance despite the familiarity of the situation, again.

Day 242 – 2018.30.08

Krist and Singto just posted a picture of their 3rd photobook!!!

I’m so freakin tempted to buy it. Or maybe the earlier ones? It’s not that expensive, especially if I have it bought in Thailand. My friend can do that for me?

Should I? I only ever buy merch for fandoms I’m really into. I kind of want to buy their DVD too. Egaaaaaaad.

#fangirlstruggles

Day 241 – 2018.29.08

I’m sulking today. I feel down, and I needed the comfort of a menthol stick. It came quite a shock to me that the stress had been pushing me down this much for me to suddenly crave for a stick of cigarette.

I don’t smoke as often as before, and usually only when I’m hanging out with my BFF, but more out of habit and to pass the time than an actual craving, so for me to suddenly want a stick along with my sighing while reflecting on the issues and challenges of our current classroom…

Whoa.

I feel like my positivity has clouded my realization of a much more difficult reality of this new school year. Of course, once I put things into perspective, try to understand where our problem parents are coming from, why the kids are acting the way they do, which areas we are lacking as teachers, everything is forgivable. Actually, at this point, I’ve forgiven what I’ve been sulking about from this morning (a parent), but there’s still an after taste of that bitter experience.

I’m only human, so I’ll succumb to the stick for today. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Day 241 – 2018.29.08

I’m sulking today. I feel down, and I needed the comfort of a menthol stick. It came quite a shock to me that the stress had been pushing me down this much for me to suddenly crave for a stick of cigarette.

I don’t smoke as often as before, and usually only when I’m hanging out with my BFF, but more out of habit and to pass the time than an actual craving, so for me to suddenly want a stick along with my sighing while reflecting on the issues and challenges of our current classroom…

Whoa.

I feel like my positivity has clouded my realization of a much more difficult reality of this new school year. Of course, once I put things into perspective, try to understand where our problem parents are coming from, why the kids are acting the way they do, which areas we are lacking as teachers, everything is forgivable. Actually, at this point, I’ve forgiven what I’ve been sulking about from this morning (a parent), but there’s still an after taste of that bitter experience.

I’m only human, so I’ll succumb to the stick for today. Tomorrow will be a better day.