Day 131: 05.12.17





Congratulations to me and teacher Camille!
Woot woot! My first event as a coordinator, check!

I’m fine organizing events, but the biggest pressure came from the fact that this was my first school event. The tasks were challenging, but doable, but it’s so rigorous and numerous that it was overwhelming physically, emotionally, and mentally.

Nonetheless, that’s a wrap!

Now can I do more leisurely activities? *ehermwritingeherm*

One of our guests was really cute. He plays the bass clarinet, is eloquent, good with kids, likes to trek and is single.

My heart tells me to add and chat with him on Facebook, but my personality stops me. I’m just really not the type to do that. HAAAAY.

And this is the reason why I’m going to remain single for life. *criesinacorner*

Day 102: 04.12.17


So my introverted self kicked in when I started feeling anxious about the plans of this group I’m suddenly included in.

I mean, of course I agreed to be part of it, but I guess the plans made after became quite overwhelming for me. There are plans of promoting like having teasers, banners, icons, posts about our works that it got to the point that it become quite uncomfortable with me. I guess it’s because I joined the group with very little expectation of what would happened. I thought we’ll just exchange idea, make something out of it, post it then done.

And when it comes to my writing, I’m very low key. Partly because I don’t want to disappoint myself if people don’t respond to it positively, and because like I have different gadgets for different usage, my personal social media accounts are detached of my writing accounts. So if I write in LiveJournal, I post in communities in LiveJournal. If If my target audience is in Wattpad, I post in Wattpad. So I don’t include links of my writing spaces on my Facebook, Instagram, or personal Twitter. For Twitter at least, I made a separate account for MayWard, so I can promote there.

Anyhow, I think the anxiety also came from me not being able to jump into the conversation in our group chat as easily as others. I’m more of an email/forum type of member, so group chats, especially one with a lot of members at the same time, is very fast for me. I’ve never been into chats actually. And when I cannot grip the situation, I get frustrated with it.

It’s also a bit annoying that the plans for our group (which is getting more in numbers) can easily be buried in a pile of nonsensical, albeit more fun, things in the chat. Anyway, I found a way to solve this problem, so I feel a bit better.

Oh well. We did try a move on Twitter today regarding teasing our readers, “the fans” (juskolord meron ba), and the response was quite massive. So yey for pressure! Pota.

Nonetheless, it’s been a long while since I interacted with fellow fans of a fandom whom I don’t know personally, so ang lakas maka-bata. That’s a good thing, Tita Micchie!


Day 101: 04.11.17

Indeed, you learn if you allow yourself to learn.

Today, I gained two new skills: diving and swimming up to the lower part of the pool and gliding forward in water.

I’m really not into swimming, so I never bothered with learning how to swim. One, I don’t like my skin getting darker; two, I find wet clothes and managing them after a chore; three, I don’t like the tired feeling after swimming. These are my reasons, of course, so I have always wondered why some people was so fond of it. Most of what I would do when I am in a pool is just to float or sit around. If I have a floater with me, I use the pool as my bed.

My co-teachers now are obviously fond of the water, so they really were down to wanting a tan, being in bikinis, and doing swimming tricks. Since I had my share of traumatic experiences in waters, I was reluctant to do the tricks they were encouraging me to do.

However, when I did try, for example swimming between the legs of friend underwater, I was somehow able to do it! It took me several times just staying and moving underwater, but I was able to improve myself from the first fail because I willed myself to improve. If I allowed myself to just laze around in water and not try again and seek guidance from my friends, then I wouldn’t feel this good about myself now.

Now, I think I have a new perspective about swimming. I’m excited to have a go again. 🙂

Day 78: 03.19.17

Since we’ve been exploring about the world of ANTS in class the past week, these small creatures had never been so fascinating, and scary to me.

I loved the discoveries to much that I shared it to my mom over lunch. She speculated I was talking lies. WUT?!

Maybe for another post, I’ll write down some facts about them. For the mean time, go watch this amazing episode of Nat Geo about them:

On another note, it’s 4 days before our flight to Taiwan. Everything is set except for a few things we need to consider upon arrival. To get the Taipei pass or rely on Easy Pass alone? Hmmm…

Day 69: 03.10.17


Yes, it’s Zen Friday.

I woke up early (because I slept at 10:30 the previous day, wut), but I still got to work later than my two other teachers. LOL

Anyway, aside from my Zen-status every Friday, I also make it a point to improve my looks with make-up during this day. I mean, I’m not a big fan of make-up and I think it will take me a while to get to baking, blending eye shadows, falsies and contouring, but I do enjoy it now.

I like working on my eyebrows, most especially. I love it when I’m able to arc it effortlessly. If there’s one thing always complimented about my face even waaaaaaaay back when I was young, it had always been my eyebrows. Naturally pretty, but then I got curious about tweezing and shaving, so now it’s not that pretty anymore. I have to work on it to keep it nice. I don’t like the strong, think and drawn eyebrows too. The more natural it looks, the better for me.

I don’t post selfies everyday, but I feel pretty, why not?


Day 59:02.28.17

Congratulations, Dheni and Pau!


I’m sure marriage will only make your relationship even stronger as you’ve already won 10 years of relationship ups and downs.

Baby na soon! Hahaha!


I’m always awed by couples who are able to reach six onward years together. Being a decent human being to others is already such a chore, what more when you need to give all your time, devotion, love, and understanding to one? It must be very consuming. Nonetheless, I guess if the love is reciprocated, then everything is doubled or more, right? I’m an irony of skepticism and optimism, but at the very core, I’d love to believe that happy endings are possible.

I looked like a decent female during the wedding. Save for my peeling letheret shoes.


HAHA! Kapal ng mukha nalang talaga bakit ba.

Day 57:02.26.17

Went out in the afternoon to find clothes for my friend’s wedding on Tuesday.

Instead of finding a dress, I found these shoes:


I saw these weeks ago, but I had so much doubt whether to buy it or not because it’s not the usual style I have. But I’ve always liked this kind of style and because the green color is so awesome!

Will be wearing it to work on Tuesday! Hehe~