Day 064 – 2018.05.03

I somehow got into a long conversation with our level head today, and I’m not even sure how the short chat/update warped into that.

Until now, I’m not sure why people suddenly confide in me their feelings or problems or thoughts, but I listen nonetheless. I’m particularly a good listener because I’m not the type to talk about my personal feelings just to anyone nearby. I guess it’s not a very odd thing to suddenly share personal stuff to others, and I just find it strange because that is very unlikely of me to do.

For whatever that talk was worth, I was very thankful of the trust. I was also very grateful that for a mentor of that intelligence and passion to her job as an educator, I was in good hands exchanging a parcel of my heart as a teacher while lending ears as empathetic friend.

It’s great being in your life, Ms. Mei! ❤

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Day 020 – 2018.20.18

As I wanted to stay away from the heat of this day, I stored myself in a bookstore instead.

Since I was there for two hours and I basically finished reading a whole book, I opted to return the kindness and purchase a product. After all, I still had a gift card, so guilt free with the expenses!

I’m not into Science fiction, but I really found the creativity of Douglas Adams amazing and humorous. I liked the movie, but let’s see whether this book will be shelved and categorized as hoarded or as favorite.

Or, well, at least read.

Anyhow, the Family Day event at school was a success, so congratulations, work fam! ♥

Day 013 – 2018.13.01

What a fun time with co-teachers today!

Went to Sinagtala Farm and Resort in Bataan for our school building. Our supervisor said it was actually my moody boss’ idea, and it’s nothing short of odd and amazing at the same time. Nonetheless, of course, we all are very thankful. 🙂

Tried some new things like riding a bicycle suspended on air (sky cycle), ziplining and sky swing (a massive swing). They’re all pretty scary in the beginning, but they’re all really fun. During the zipline, I felt really close to the sky so I screamed “I love you Daddy, and I’m sorry for everything” then I started crying a bit. It’s kind of scary because I think I’ve been suppressing a lot of feeling regarding daddy’s death, and I’m not sure how to deal with it properly, so they just come out in episodes like this.

Anyhow, the sky and weather was amazing today, so I can’t help but take pictures, of course.

 

Haaaay. Sky shots will always save me.

Day 304: 10.31.2017

So at 7 AM, I braved fighting the sleepiness of a holiday morning to meet my co-teachers for shopping.

Shopping.

I don’t even like shopping just for the heck of it, but I think I was just really curious about this shopping spot in Taytay which apparently sells really cheap clothes. Inside, there are probably a hundred of tiyangge stalls. Most of them sell the same type of clothes and the prices do not vary as much. Nonetheless, there are differences, so I suppose to get the most out of your money, better go around and ask around–a lot.

The place is actually massive because the shopping place is not only one area, but the entirety of the shopping place is several tents and areas, so it’s probably better to call it a shopping district. It only reminds me of Chatuchak Market in Thailand and those shopping districts in Taiwan’s night markets and in Ximending, although more compact.

So what did I buy?

Under clothes: cycling shorts (30 pesos), undershirt (50 pesos), and leggings (60) for 140 pesos. The leggings is cheaper than the one in Guadalupe, but I can buy one from an ukay-ukay for 50. Haha! Anyhow, I might come back. Or not. I mean, yeah it’s cheap, but the fashion is not really my taste, and I think I can spot a bargain of the same or similar price somewhere nearer like in Guadalupe or Market Market or an ukay-ukay.

Nonetheless, I did enjoy the company and food, so still a yay than a nay!

Day 279: 10.06.2017

Spent five hours in Burger King for an impromptu date with this school year’s batch of new teachers! Finally. Hahahaha!

These kids are actually nice ones. They are quite different from our group last year, but really, it’s futile to compare and long for the past one, no matter how much I loved those girls, too.

Oh! One of my new co-teachers wanted me to meet a guy.
Errr.
Okay.
Okay.
I know I’m almost 30 years old and I should be searching not only for a boyfriend, but a husband, but really, I’m not sure if that’s what I want right now. Also, I’m not sure what to do in dates. Do I conceal some parts of my personality (that I think will be an instant turn off hahaha) on a first date? I HAVE NO IDEA. HOW TO DATE 101 PLS. LOL

So in the end, I just sold the idea to another co-teacher and I think they’ll fit better. Erm, maybe. Haaaay. What am I waiting for anyway?

Anyhow, CHEERS TO MORE BONDINGS WITH THESE LOVELIES!

Day 273: 09.30.2017

It’s always a blast going out with co-workers. They are the right people to bond with just to help each other vent fumes from work challenges.

The lunch was a bit impromptu, but impromptu usually works for me. Impromptu is urgent, but it answers to one’s rawest need at a time. So thanks or the lunch treat, Teacher Bernie! And of course to my constant buddies since last year, Lia and Rochelle!

On the other hand, I’m not sure how I’m able to become comfortable with women half my age. I mean, even when I was young, I always hear “Mature mag-isip” as a comment about the way I converse. I was never awkward talking to my mom’s friend, and I remember actually discussing some ideas with them. Even when I began working, conversing and being close with older people seemed very natural to me.

Well, I’m not complaining. It’s just amusing. 🙂

Day 171: 06.24.17

I’m usually a home person, but when your boss invites you over for a swim in an ultra exclusive, expensive resort for free, you drag your home person ass and go! 

Hello, Punta Fuego! 

Certainly enjoyed taking pictures of the sea in its different forms: bold with strong and big waves, calm and enduring in its peace. There were also rocks, beautiful landscape of rocks! 

I happen to pass these leaves that looked like it came from an Instagram post with its filtered-like color. 

And first time on a banana boat and canoe! It was fun!!! I’m definitely enjoying the water more and more because of this bunch of co-workers. I think I’m always going to remember these lovely people whenever I’m swimming. It’s a bit bittersweet, really. 😣

Day 150: 05.31.17

Woke up to a hearty breakfast in Laguna after a night filled with uninterrupted conversation about work, life, and other things in-between over dinner, pastries, tea, and coffee.

Indeed, the lack of social media and wifi keep people bonded better in conversations. So tip, in dates, set this policy.

(LOL, as if I know anything about dating. HAHAHAHHAHAHA…. *fade to black*)

Anyhow, morning was swimming day!

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Fine, fine day to swim: not too sunny, not rainy! (Though it rained after a while)

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I’m in love with this glasses. I hope we share more trips together, luv!

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Students and swimming coaches (LOL)

Definitely appreciating swimming in a whole new level because of my co-teachers/swimming coaches. I’ve been exploring what my body can do in water because of the encouragement of these people. No wonder they love the water so much!

I used to find swimming bothersome because of the wet clothes, changing, and I can only float in water like trash in Pasig River anyway, but the water suddenly turned into a learning ground, I’m a willing-to-learn student, thus, I gained much out of it (buoyancy was still hard to explain tho LOL).

Last hurrah for May, but this ain’t the last swim with these girls! Excited for the 24th! WEEE~

Day 149: 05.30.17

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Bea (1s), Rochelle and Lia (2s), Mimi and Cat (3s), Kim (Admin), Michelle and Geli (4s), Tresia and Myka (5s and Gr.1) – SUMMIT TEAM

Some tears and goodbye took place this afternoon as 7 out of 10 in this picture are taking on new roads starting next week.

It’s been an eventful school year with these ladies. It’s painful to accept that the time will come when we’ll be too busy with our own roads to look back to where we all came from together, but I’m still thankful to have had the chance to work and play with these souls in this lifetime. ❤

SUMMIT TEAM 2016-2017, SIGNING OFF.

QUOTES: “The Rainbow Troops” by Andrea Hirata

And it turns out, if the heart is not envious of one with knowledge, then it can be illuminated by the rays of enlightenment. Like stupidity, intelligence is contagious. – Chapter 11, “Full Moon”


I kept the money carefully in my pocket and never let go of it. Suddenly everyone looked like a thief. Money, indeed, has a cruel influence. – Chapter 40, “My Promise to Bu Mus” 


I was disappointed that so many intelligent children were forced to leave school for economic reasons. I cursed all of the stupid people who arrogantly acted smart. I hated those children of the rich who threw away their educations. – Chapter 46, “His Third Promise”


But in the end our school finally lost. We were brought to our knees by education’s strongest, cruelest, most merciless and hardest-to-fight invisible enemy. It slowly gnawed away at the students, teachers, and even the education system itself like a malignant tumor: That enemy was materialism.

The current world of education no longer saw school like Pak Harfan saw it–that knowledge is about self-value, and that education is a celebration of the Creator: That school doesn’t have to be merely a means toward getting to the next level, making money and getting rich. Rather, he saw school as a celebration of humanity, one that stood for dignity, the joy of learning, and the light of civilization. School nowadays was no longer a place to build character, but a part of a capitalistic plan to be rich and famous, to show off academic titles and gain bow. – Chapter 48, “Don’t Give Up”


The wisdom was simple as the humble school itself. Fate, effort, and destiny are like three blue mountains cradling humanity and rocking them in comfort. Those mountains conspire with each other to create the future, and most find it difficult to understand how they work together. Those who fail in some aspect of life blame it on God. They say if they are poor, it is because God made them that their destiny. Those who are tired of trying stand still, waiting for destiny to change their fate. Those who don’t want to work hard accept their fate because they believe it is unchangeable–after all, everything has already been preordained, or so they believe. So the devil’s circle hems in the lazy. But what I know for sure from my own experience at the poor school is that a hard-working life is like picking up fruit from a basket with a blindfold on. Whatever fruit we end up getting, at least we have fruit. Meanwhile, life without hard work is like looking for a black cat in a dark room with closed eyes, and the cat is not even there. – Chapter 48, “Don’t Give Up”, Ikay’s belief

No derailing

Okay, I really need to regain ground.

 

This day was mind-bugging enough (in terms of my relationship with some co-workers) that it made me reflect on my current status.

In school, I’m a teacher before a friend or co-worker, so I should be giving more of my energy to work. I love my co-teachers to pieces and I’m so thankful that I’m forging a strong, friendly relationship with them from this point, but they zap too much of my energy! Haha~ It’s not their fault of course, those girls can work well while having fun around them. I’m the one who has a difficult time adjusting to the situation; the better situation. I guess I’m still getting used to the good chaos with the bad that I’m leaning more to the favorable as of now.

Nonetheless, I think this good situation with my co-teachers will remain stable (I do hope so!), so I have to go back to focusing on work now. I don’t want to let other people get inside my head (and heart) if I’m not gonna matter to them too. So be it.

 

Alright, Michelle.

Lezzdothis!

Eherm 5.

So crush was not in the mood today.

Unlike yesterday, she was the first one from their department to say hi to me. Today, I kept waiting for her class to finish so I can say hello, but she just passed me by. Also, she was nowhere near my table during lunch and we didn’t talk at all! To think that I made sure to dress really well, and girly today.

I can’t believe I spent the whole seeking for her and greeting her and smiling at her lovingly at every chance we’re in the same area. I’m getting so hyper-aware of her and feeling foolish already.

I’m also planning on buying that cologne I used before which she like a lot. Yep, it’s me seducing now, WTF.

 

Damn it.

What’s happening.

 

But I wanna see her tomorrow. Although I think that’s impossible. Maybe Monday is the soonest. *sigh*

 

 

 

 

 

This version of me is getting more and more ridiculous.

 

 

On the other hand, I’m so loving my other co-teachers. All of them are so nice to me. Apparently, it’s true that the problem we didn’t get along earlier was my own fault in judging character. I can be so arrogant sometimes. Urgh. I’m so thankful for these people who are making my work days more fun and for welcoming me.

As always, lunch time/recess is the best. 😀

After 60 days…

It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Ah, yes, a lot has happened since then.

Well, what’s up?

For me, things are getting better. I really don’t want to jinx the good vibes by being definite about my comfort in my new work place, but things are better and I should share it!

After two months, my efforts to connect to my new co-teachers have finally paid off. I can now share things about myself and my life with comfort, and most especially joke around with them. It’s not joke, but being able to joke around with a person is my own personal stamp of approval to that person as a good co-worker or potential friend. As of now, I can’t really say that my co-teachers are friends, but they are definitely great co-teachers. I’m finally able to connect with them not only on a business level, but personal, too. So I’m kinda sad that one of the teachers who has helped me build a connection to others is quitting soon. I definitely have to have a picture taken tomorrow!

In terms of the work itself, my reading classes are much better. Unknowingly, I’ve observed keenly to learn from my co-teachers, and I did my part of reading about the program and how to handle this kind of class. Application of learned knowledge is essential!

Regarding my creative writing class, well, that’s something that needs more of my attention now. As a lone CW teacher with a weak background on the subject, I have to push myself more. The students for this class are more aggressive and independent. I can feel them trying to overpower me, at some point, to bully me. Well, they can try, but I don’t really think they can. Adults couldn’t, how can they? Haha~ Anyhow, I really have to pay more attention to this class as it’s been two months, but I feel my progress is still sloooooooow. It leaves me frustrated and lacking every time. I feel bad for the students, too.

To be honest, for a person who has turned her back on writing for a long time, just to suddenly be given writing as a job is frustrating. It feels like my insecurity hunting me, closing the walls on me. Well, I’ll take it as a challenge. In the long run, I might be able to write again! I passionately wish for that.

Anyhow, I also need to work on adjusting my attitude to students! Damn, I need to learn how to be strict! I can’t be too yielding and friendly all the time. Those smarty pants will outsmart me. Hmp!

There’s a lot to learn from this work, but I find myself having fun. What an amusing ordeal. Oh well!

 

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Hello there! How do you do?

It’s been some eventful weeks so far. Progress are happening which really makes me happy.

I’m still struggling with handling children as my students. Learning the reading program is fun, and teaching it is more exciting than I expected. Especially when I see a glint of thrill in the student’s eyes whenever I show them our book of the day. Although there’s still much to learn, I believe I’m getting the hang of it. In terms of creative writing, I’ve gathered enough ideas to last me two months worth of sessions. The trouble usually lies on the student themselves, or my lack of understanding with children. So far, my CW classes are consequently a series of trial-and-error as each student have their own reservations when it comes to expressing themselves on paper; some prefer not to ever express themselves on paper! I swear, most of my CW classes exhaust me, leaving me depressed and often feeling inadequate for the job.

*sigh*

On a lighter note, I think my co-workers are warming up to me, and me to them. There’s just some moments in our small room wherein I feel very left out. It’s probably just me being hesitant and overly concerned about boundaries (I hate making myself seem overly friendly), though I’ve established the strongest friendships I had through lowering our walls around each other and proceeding to teasing! Seriously! I just hate the feeling of being so self-conscious and uncomfortable, especially since they are the people I’d be seeing and working around with–hopefully–for a long time. I hope we can shed off the awkwardness soon. Though they’re not my kind of crowd, I genuinely think my co-workers are pretty nice people.

Another progress is one of my really good friend whom I had a sort of fall-out with apologizing to me. I really loved this friend of mine, so I was easily hurt when he did something which hurt our friendship. It’s especially more vexing when the root of the friendship problem is money. Well, we’ll be seeing each other on Friday with our other friends. We’ve talked a bit over Facebook, so I’m sure most of the awkwardness would’ve been dispelled on Friday. Hmm, well let’s see.

Another update is I’m biking more often! Yes, I think my body and my bike are getting more used to each other. There was a dangerous incident today wherein I almost caused traffic and some people shouting at me for carelessly crossing the road on a GO, but that’s another lesson to be learned, right? Moreover, I got to chat shortly with a really nice uncle who also bikes to and from work. It’s nice to get another perspective regarding biking for practical purposes. Also, I’m never biking in skinny jeans! Damn fashion! Comfort would also come first for me!

There’s still much to update, but since my eyes are telling me to lay down and let it rest, I shall end here…for now.

Life, UPDATED.

 

 

 

Good night!