Day 168: 06.21.17

 ABA Seminar + MM Album Launch

Despite my disappointment that a seminar cosmically fell on the same day I’ve been looking forward to since May, it was a priority.

I’m a fan through and through, but above that, I’m a teacher, so I know my priority should still be work over fandom.

Thus, when I heard that the seminar our boss wanted us to attend (and paid for in full, yay!) was on the same day as Maymay’s album launch, I knew I had to make a plan. The show starts at 5 PM, the seminar ends at 5 PM, so I at least had to reach the nearest MRT station before 5:30 PM by foot or Uber/Grab, so even if there’s already a line, I’ll be inside the train by 6 PM or earlier. I would reach the venue by 7 PM (latest would be 8 PM), and I’ll just pray that the show starts late so I can still catch Maymay and Edward on stage, or if not, just have late dinner with whoever MES I’ll meet there.

Right.

So, the seminar started a bit late. It was supposed to be 2 PM, but per Filipino time, we began around 2:15, maybe. It was a bit embarrassing because our speaker was Japanese and she works in the States, and we know just how strict Japanese and American time are. Nonetheless, when the hall had most of the guests seated, Ms. Mari Ueda, our speaker, began.

The seminar was about managing challenging behaviors in the classroom using the Applied Behavior Analysis (ABA). The approach is widely accepted and deemed successful especially managing behaviors of children with autism.

“Behavior analysis focuses on the principles that explain how learning takes place. Positive reinforcement is one such principle. When a behavior is followed by some sort of reward, the behavior is more likely to be repeated. Through decades of research, the field of behavior analysis has developed many techniques for increasing useful behaviors and reducing those that may cause harm or interfere with learning.

Applied behavior analysis (ABA) is the use of these techniques and principles to bring about meaningful and positive change in behavior.”

-https://www.autismspeaks.org/what-autism/treatment/applied-behavior-analysis-aba

I think our boss had us attend this seminar when he saw the word “challenging behavior” in the seminar title, though in my opinion, I didn’t leave the seminar with much to gain from it. Of course, it was worth the time to learn about a kind of approach used in classrooms, but I think we’ve been doing the same kind of management in our classroom though in a different way. Positive reinforcement is at the heart of managing behavior especially with this generation who seem to be more liberated mentally and emotionally, and would not accept being dictated of what to do. The use of concrete rewards (like candy, chocolates, etc) is a big NO in our classroom management, but kind of the same when we reward students with a choice that is in their favor, but doing what they have to do (teacher-directed) first.

Nonetheless, Skinner’s operation conditioning techniques which ABA adheres to is very helpful for children with autism since the structure of repetition, action and rewards help them with routine and building skills.

Anyhow (didn’t intend to give an opinion about the seminar, but anyway there you go), I’m thankful that perhaps the venue were kind of strict with time, so the seminar ended at exactly 5 PM (unlike their earlier run-down of schedule which would have finished at 6 PM). Moreover, the venue was walking distance to the nearest MRT station, so I was able to reach the station by 5:20. There was already a long que to the platform, but at least I was able to go ride the train before 6 PM.

The trip to North Avenue Station from Ayala was a long, torturous one. However, I still felt very lucky that I was able to be on the train before the rain had a downpour. On the other hand, I wanted to reach the venue as early as I could because I really wanted to see Maymay perform. “Champagne Supernova” played on my iPod along with the feel of the moving train and the dark sky outside with a heavy downpour and I wanted to..drink. LOL

By quarter to 6, I was already inside the venue. I got my album and Maymay was already performing.

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It was a flood of green light sticks and the love of all the fans that filled the small dome was overwhelming. I felt very lucky to have had the opportunity to be with everyone who felt the same admiration to this simple girl, but I’m sure Maymay was a hundred times overwhelmed with all the blessings coming her way.

I was finally reunited with Charlo and then I met another MES member, Sky along with other MayWard fans from another group. It was kind of awkward having to interact with new people, but I just thought that since we had a common love for MayWard, it wasn’t so bad to show my real side to them. So when Maymay performed, Edward came out, and the two had a surprise fucking hug on stage, I couldn’t help but hit Sky in glee. HAHAHAHAHA! It’s a reflex when I’m giddy, so sorry Sky! LOL

On Maymay:

This girl. Wow. I’m floored by her dedication to improve herself. Edward was right, the girl from PBB would never have dreamed or performed like that, but she really pused her skills and confidence to improve to give the fans what they deserve: a good show. Her singing was on point, she had swag when she danced, and it felt like was born to be on that stage. You can see her passion in performance, as well as her comfort and happiness. Up close, she still looked the same as in pictures: pretty, kind-looking, and bright. Her bright smile and her warm aura reminded me of Isshi during that live in Nagoya. I swear, it was a warmth that I’d love to come back to. 

So to bashers who say that Maymay looks like a monkey or a corpse, it would be a pleasure setting you on fire after proving you wrong.
On Edward:

Unlike Maymay, we didn’t have the chance to meet him up-close, but even from afar, damn that smile! I’ll say blame it on the lights, but daaaaaaym, that smile belongs to a toothpaste commercial! I’m sure Edward is as handsome as he is in pictures, or probably more. He was very attentive to Maymay when they were together on stage. I’ve seen the same kind of attentiveness of Edward to Maymay in numerous videos and pictures, but it’s quite different when you see it for yourself. I dare say, this boy has feelings for Maymay and it’s probably running very deep now. *thumbs up*

On MayWard ❤

Despite knowing that their “Baliw” performance is rehearsed, they pull it off so freagin naturally! I mean, we’re around 2000 people in the dome, but they never take their eyes off each other for more than 5 seconds! Edward probably really enjoys making Maymay kilig, so he’s always ready to battle her in a staring contest, to invade personal space, to be touchy, and get the audience riled up. 90% of MW Flyers are either women or gay, so of course, when it’s the guy making the moves, we all go crazy over it. Maymay represents any girl who gets to have a handsome prince give attention to her that intimately. The girl who tries to keep composure by keeping in her giggles and failing miserably at it, so in the end, you just hold on to him for dear life.

I didn’t expect for them to have that tight embrace at the end of the performance: Maymay resting her head on Ed’s shoulder, eyes closed with an ecstatic expression, and Ed just enclosed her whole body to his, smiling like an idiot and looking oh so proud of his girl. That embraced lasted for about 3 seconds, but the feeling it elicited from us was orgasm: intense and convulsing. LOL. TMI?

What more, we actually didn’t see from our side that before that embrace, when Edward dipped Maymay, their faces were super close and Maymay pressed their noses together. It looked like Maymay used every inch of self-confidence to do it, but Edward obviously enjoyed her boldness and the result of it. Maybe it’s a dare? Oh, we’ll never know!

The last part of the launch allowed a group of 10 to be in a picture with Maymay, so yay! I was finally able to give her and Ed’s gift! We actually had a moment which went like this:

Me: Hi, Maymay!
MM: Hello po!
Me: *hands gift* for you~
MM: *looks overwhelmed* Ay thank you po. A—
Guard: Paki bilis lang poooooo
MM: Hala ate, salamat po.
Me: Welcome! Pa-kiss ako!
MM: Sige po~ *beso*
Me: *beso*
(kuya sa background: Marami pa pong tao na susunod sa inyo sige na pooo!)
Me and MM: *laughs*
Me: Eto na nga kuya! Bye May!
MM: Bye po sa inyo!

I didn’t have the chance to hear what she wanted to say because of that guard! But of course I know they were only doing their job. Oh well.

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Ate late dinner with Char at Yellow Cab and shared about many things, MW and personal life included. Glad to have met this girl whose also a Thomasian! Go USTe!

Ripping my album CD to transfer to my iPod and listen to the songs tomorrow.

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Haaaaay. What a day.

Day 165: 06.18.17

Finally got the ticket for Maymay’s Album Launch on the 21st!

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I’m not even sure how much for the show I’ll be able to see since I have a seminar that will end by the time the show begins, so despite my disagreement to the logic of Filipino time, I will be displacing my pride for now and wish that they follow the cultural manner as strictly as possible on Thursday. #guilty

I was also able to meet my fellow-MES writer, Char! I’m also very thankful that she dragged me out of my shell that day or I wouldn’t have had the chance to chat with the other Flyers (official nickname of MayWard fans).

My introvert self was in full mode that day, so despite the staff chatting me up, my mind was set on the goal of not exposing myself, getting my ticket, and going ahead. So when Char begged me to come with her to have a picture with the other Flyers (the more known ones on Twitter), I was very hesitant. Nonetheless, with Char as my comfort zone, I was able to socialize with ease.

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After saying goodbye to new found fandom-mates, Mao and I headed out for our weekly eat out. We were missing deokbokki, and deokbokkie we shall have!

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We decided to eat out around Tomas Morato area since the ticket venue claiming was in Quezon City too (and because BFF was nice enough to go with me). Though far, the Korean resto where we dinned was worth it! For a plate of deokbokki good for 2-3 people, we only paid 300 pesos! So cheap! To add, our server was a very very cute young man who was the epitome of an “uke” (Google at your own risk) and whom was so nice and attentive that our overall experience I would rate as 15 over 10 stars! Hahahahah!

Unfortunately, the kakigori place we set to have dessert at ran out of kakigori (to our horror!), so we had to transfer to Kozui for our green tea ice cream dessert.

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I missed that place! The first and last time I ate there must have been around five years ago! It’s kind of sad to see it look a bit older, but I’m happy to see that it endured through the years.

Day 107: 04.18.17

Day sucks with employment stuff and the reality that really, it’s time for me to wake up and smell the coffee.

On other, brighter news, a new McDo commercial was launched!

It’s none other than MayWard’s TVC nd I’m so freakin proud of them. dSJDkjasdfahfvsdmfvhhsdfhsdfj

Without bias, one of the best and most fun commercials of this brand. Very creative and it just really suit their personality and relationship as friends, or eherm, something else. YIIEEE~~~

 

Day 77: 03.18.17

OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
EDWARD WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Is this boy really 16?! Bakit ang kire kire niya?!

Edward really knows how to please a girl, and well, he probably knows Maymay really well and what will make her feel “kilig”.

So here they are performing their songs, “Titig ng Pag-ibig” when Edward put down his mic so they can have one mic only while both his hands lay on Maymay’s waist and arms. Then, during “Baliw” I saw a GIF of him taking Maymay’s mic to put behind his back so that they can share one mic instead. I think in all of these, Maymay was just genuinely surprised at Edward’s “moves”.

It’s funny that despite Maymay’s effort not to fall for Edward, I think the boy has other plans, don’t you think so? Ohhhh that would be a hard battle, Maymay. Keep strong! Haha!

Pero galingan mo pa rin, Edward! LOL

Day 75: 03.16.17

MayWard post here!

Yesterday, the MayWard (Maymay x Edward) episode of Magandang Buhay (local morning talk show) was aired!

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I was delighted with this show because the whole episode was just good vibes. The hosts are all moms in real life, so they knew how to treat these kids right. A good nudge on what’s going on in their life individually and as a pair, but knew where to put a break on the inquiry and when to put in a good advice for their betterment.

In all TV shows that Edward and Maymay has guessed in, they’ve been asked about those admissions they’ve had from the Lie Detector test: Maymay having a crush on Edward, and Edward having feelings for Maymay. To be honest, I’m still boggled about what “feelings” mean for Edward because I feel that he does like Maymay a lot, but up to what extent, he wants to keep it to himself for now. So this show was no exception, they were asked about it. Edward confirmed, yes, if it was true he has feelings for Maymay and consistently answered that Maymay is one of the few people he really trusts including Yong and Kisses. This is also his go-to answer in other shows.

I’m just wondering though, if you try to conclude based on his answer, then feelings equate to deep trust which he also shares for Yong and Kisses, so he also has “feelings” for the two? Haha! Although, to be fair to our fandom, Edward has a special fondness for Maymay. Either he seeks comfort and familiarity from her (Edward once said Maymay reminds him a lot of his older sister) or she’s just very unique from the rest (and she is!), I would conclude that Maymay is the most special and whom he has the strongest “feeling” out of all his friends.

Moreover, I love this episode because the feelings is just one part of MayWard they tapped on, it did not dominate the conversation. Edward and Maymay had their individual segments. Maymay was interviewed with her mother, highlighting their relationship and her as a daughter. Edward’s upbringing, generous family, and good values were emphasized, too. He’s more than just the charming face, he’s the complete package!

Then they had the immitation game which shows how great their friendship is. Basically, you can’t imitate properly a person you haven’t been or have observed for a long time.

Basically, it was a great episode coming home to. I wish they would guest on this show again. 🙂

Day 64: 03.05.17

PBB Lucky Season 7 Big Winner is…MAYMAY!!!

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*victory dance* WOOT WOOT! My bet won!!!
After seven whole days of doing my part as a supporter by sending votes for both Maymay and Edward, I can proudly say, I was part of this victory. It was the first time I ever engaged myself in the voting of a Big Winner or in any local shows that demanded voting actually because I am not a fan of the local showbiz industry.

Local showbiz is too mainstream for me. Teleseryes and movies are made for celebrities, not the other way around. It feeds on the fantasy of people and I feel that most actors are either overshadowed by popular “love teams” or ignored by management if they don’t have strong fanbases, so their talent goes to waste. Then indie cinemas take notice of them, then they go back to mainstream. Well, no brainer there. That’s where the money is. Nonetheless, for the sake of my admiration for these two young adults, Maymay and Edward, I have involved myself and dived into the workings of showbiz as I stay more for this fandom.

Even after PBB, I know I would be supporting these two kids because I admired them not as celebrities dolled-up and trained in people-pleasing talk, but because I got to observe and admire them from afar as a TV audience in a world where they allowed themselves open for the world to love or criticize for being themselves.

I stopped watching PBB after the first season because there were just too much drama, and the teen edition was too hormonal-driven for my taste. However, because of this funny girl, Maymay, I stayed. And I’m glad I did. And I’m so, so proud that she roused victorious after that long, long battle inside Kuya’s house.

Here’s are the reasons why Maymay is my Big Winner:

VOICE OF LAUGHTER

A lot of people compared her to Melai Cantiveros (PBB Big Winner 2009) for being the funny, not-that-pretty Bisaya girl whom Kuya (Big Brother) loves to joke with. I agree with this actually! They are both naturally funny and charming. While Melai has the witty punchlines, Maymay has the facial muscles to contort her face into a funny one. Lots of bashers used this fact to make fun of her, but I found it so endearing. Anyone who can make me laugh in stitches is a winner! Her banters with Kuya in and outside the confession room is also an audience favorite, thus, heaps of videos that tags “MayKu” is also available in Youtube. You can say she’s “galawgaw”, “kiti-kiti”, baliw, etc. But I think, not any of those movements were rehearsed. A lot of her friends and family members attested to her being really like that in the Outside World. Melai and Maymay actually does not see these funny characteristics of theirs as a personal trait, but could be Bisaya trait especially for those who flew to Manila. For Bisaya people who cannot express themselves very well in English or Filipino use big hand gestures and movements to express themselves better. Maymay’s funny bones (literally!) and hearty laughter brought life to the whole house, and it probably reflected well into viewer ratings. Instead of the usual pabebe teen edition, there was more focus on family bonding because it was what Maymay promoted passionately as an ate to everyone, and her happy disposition was undeniably infectious.

I first watched this season with Maymay’s episode of meeting her idol Enrique Gil. They had a date as a gift by the housemates and Kuya for the grieving Maymay who lost her lolo a few days before it. Kuya repeatedly teased and tested Maymay’s patience up to when she’s going to hold on to the possibility of meeting Enrique up close in the house, and then finally, it was the perfect time. I thought she was over acting with her reactions with Enrique because you just don’t express opinions of “Sobrang gwapo mo!” “Nakuuuuuuuuuu” and others when you have a chance like that! You have a conversation! LOL But admittedly, I couldn’t stop laughing. I just could not. For the whole episode, I could just not stop laughing because of Maymay. And well, she had the realest reaction as a fan. She did not try to hold back her kilig, her opinions, her going crazy over the situation, nor try to put a good face just for Enrique to like her. She was just savoring the moment as herself. And I thought, wow, how lucky could she be to be given this chance by Kuya. Was she a favorite?

Apparently, she was. And for very valid reasons, anyway. I’m a snob and critical of what I watch and who I see on TV, but to make me (and probably thousands more), the management knew they found a gem in her.

FAMILY-ORIENTED

As easily as Maymay can make someone laugh, she can make people cry as easily, too. But well, it would have been better without having a loved one go.

While inside the house, her lolo, Papa Joe, passed away. The whole nation saw the happy-go-lucky Maymay bend her smile into frowns and sobs. Honestly, I couldn’t help but cry with her when I saw her break down as she heard the news from her cousin. Later on, she told Kuya that the very reason she entered the house was to help support her grandfather, to get him into a private hospital, to help with his medication. She also wants her mother, who has been working in Japan for 20 years and supporting her big extended family to finally retire and stay with her in the Philippines. Her father left them when she was one-year-old which forced her mother to seek employment in Japan. Ever since, her grandparents raised her.

We saw her broken when her grandfather died, but she bounced back as best as she could so as not to make her housemates, whom she considers like her own kin, feel down as well. One of the best things I like about Maymay is that she is not “paawa” (begging for pitty) even during the time that she was in the position to be so, or even with the fact that she lost a loved one, her family is poor and they were abandoned by her father. In fact, when she’s telling stories about her humble, big family, you always feel like she’s just telling you a story as a matter of factly. She boasts about the happiness her family shares despite the challenges financially. She’s not there to gain sympathy or pitt\y, but she was clear in her goal in the house by sharing who she is completely, family background, skills and all. On the day her grandfather died and when she went back to the house after 24 hours (as a house rule), she chose to hide her tears in the bathroom so as not to bother her housemates. She tries her best to be strong and to smile especially as she is the ate of the house.

Her family serves as her moral ground. Being raised Christian and by grandparents, Maymay’s values and perspectives when it comes to love and relationships goes back to how she was raised by her grandparents. Thus, she never took advantage of men’s attention nor assumed anything out of it, even if it was clear as day that the male housemates adored her so much. She also shared these values to her younger housemates who needed reminding of the consequences of their actions.

TALENTED

Composing and singing

Inside the house, Maymay was able to showcase the songs she made. Some in passing, others were recorded and released as official singles. Maymay said that she is able to write songs when she’s inspired. True enough, one of the first songs she sang for her housemates was one she made years ago for a guy she liked; the most famous of all, “Baliw”, which she made after her date with Enrique Gil; an unfinished song with a working title of “Pangarap” she made and sang on the spot during their domino tower task; “Kariton” was eventually given to the Dream Team’s Dream Boys which she helped with some parts with Nonong; “Titig ng Pag-ibig” she co-wrote with Nonong again based on McLisse; an English song she had Cora translate the lyrics about being far away from a loved one; and last one the fans are calling “Dahil Sa’yo” which she was singing to Kisses as they were resting in the girls bedroom (fans are speculating the lyrics speaks of her current feelings for Edward: scared). That’s a total of seven songs! Amazing!

Writing lyrics is like writing a poem, but fitting a melody that matches the measure of the words in a song is hard work. Either you studied it or you’re talented. In my guess, Maymay is talented. She is part of a choral in her university which serves as her scholarship ticket, so perhaps her musicality has been honed because of it. However, composing songs on the spot is something we don’t see everyday. With two hits already and a great voice to boost, I’m sure record labels will have something for Maymay after PBB.

Acting

If a veteran director hails someone as the “next superstar”, hold on to that statement because they have the critical eye for potential and talent.

Acting is still not Maymay’s best suit, Edward gets that crown in a heartbeat, but she has one of the biggest potential to develop in acting fastest after PBB. I’ve always noticed how Edward has natural air and flare in acting, but after him Maymay immediately follows. Probably because when acting, Maymay puts her mind into it. She’s able to take off her funny, kiti-kiti self and be serious, so that she can get the job done well. Direk Rory B. Quintos praised her improv skills as “mahusay” as she is quick in thinking of ideas to blend with her fellow actors. In my opinion, she worked the hardest as an actor in their Live Drama task as she had the most lines to memorize, the most scenes she had to be in, and the most character to interact with other characters. She was able to transform herself into Maymay the professional actress in less than a week. Of course, having a talented director as mentor helped with the demand, but as the saying goes: success is a combination of talent, hardwork, and luck. Maymay had all of it. And I am not alone with these praises! Supporters, casual viewers, staff, directors, and co-housemates all had great things to say about her attitude towards acting.

I hope she blooms on TV as an actress in the many years to come. With Edward, of course! As a love team or as individual actors.

Dancing

Maymay once said that she was part of the dancing club in her elemetary school (?) and I think she was able to carry this interest growing up. You see her enjoy dancing and she picks up steps easily. Nikko of Hashtags even joked to his partner, McCoy that if Maymay joins Showtime, they might get kicked out because she easily learns dance moves taught to her. Maymay likes to move around, dancing just gives structure to it along with music whom she’s obviously inclined to.

Modeling

I was surprised to learn that Maymay did freelance modeling before in Cagayan de Oro. She even joined a modeling contest and I think placed a spot in the top 3. Somehow, Maymay doesn’t look very tall because her upper body is short compared to her lower body with those long legs. This makes her look like a teenager along with her co-housemates. She is the tallest in the girls of their edition, but she looks quite small beside the half-European boys, Edward and Marco. Nonetheless, Maymay’s walk is gorgeous. She has never joined a pageant until that task in PBB, but her walk is much better than the others, especially in her emerald evening gown. Her ramp walk has a bounce which excudes confidence and all the while boasting her long legs.

I wish Maymay gains a little bit more height. She’s 5″6 now which is tall for a Filipina, but to be a pro model, I think she would need to be a bit taller.

EMOTIONAL and INTERPERSONAL INTELLIGENCE

EQ is sometimes placed behind IQ and I don’t really agree with it. In fact, intelligence is not measurable because it can take form in different ways (google Gardner’s Theory of Multiple Intelligence). Maymay is one example of a girl who has emotional intelligence which reflects in her decisions and perspectives towards relationships (family, romantic, friends).
For example, despite having a crush on Edward, she chose to keep mum about it because she is not her priority as of the moment. She has anticipated the possibility of developing feelings for him as they are always together and paired up as love team, but she does not want to admit anything to the world nor to herself that she has feelings for him. Perhaps, she knows doing that admission will cause a shift in their relationship or add fuel to her feelings. She knows that she wouldn’t be able to like/love him whole-heartedly in the present. Not when they are possibly being swayed by the situation they were forced into, when she’s still recovering from a heartache, and her priority is to provide for her family. She knows it will be unfair for Edward whom she treasures as a friend.

Another example is when she raised to Kuya regarding concerns about being touchy of some housemates who like each other. She knows that as people with feelings towards each other, being touchy means something else. As teenagers, this is dangerous ground for them. Because of this move, not only was she able to lessen the physical intimacy of the younger housemates, but it also saved these kids’ image in the outside world as “malandi” or “mapusok”.

Last example was during their Lie Detector Test challenge. Before going in the chair, the housemates were asked by Kuya to light up their torch as a sign of accepting the challenge. They were given up to the end of the night to accept it or not. It took Maymay up to the last minute to decide which made a lot of people question her sincerity. Was she hiding something that’s why she was debating whether to let it out or not? She shared to her co-housemates that the reason was that she did not want to be questioned about her estranged father. Not for her, but for her mother who asked her to keep mum about him before she went inside the house. Her father has his own family now and has not made any efforts to communicate, thus, her mother wanted to keep that peace by not being asked about it in public through Maymay. Maymay, on the other hand, admitted that if it’s only her, she would take the challenge in a heartbeat, but then she was debating in herself whether to honor her mother’s decision or go with her instinct to prove her credibility as a housemate as the task is challenging them to. Initially, I wanted Maymay to take the challenge and prove to her bashers that she has nothing to hide, but after learning the reason for holding back, I respected her decision for respecting her mother’s. That’s being a good daughter. When asked by Kuya why it took her so long, she stated that all important decisions are thought about hard and long, especially if there are others that might potentially get hurt in the process. She did not let the pressure of being the only one left behind.

On the other hand, being emotionally intelligent goes hand-in-hand with interpersonal intelligence which is basically social skills. I’ve been floored over and over again by how Maymay easily charms people and help them get out of their shell. Edward and Jinri for example.

Edward, I think, really is sociable. However, his disposition as a foreigner in the house who cannot communicate in Filipino made him seem serious and quiet. However, he said he immediately felt welcomed because of the bubbly Maymay. In a day, he confessed to Marco that he liked her personality. Maymay also struggled in English, but she tried her best to communicate even before being given the School Time task. Her desire to be able to communicate and be better friends with Edward and talk this with Kuya actually bridged that event. Edward could’ve been paired to other housemates to learn as they are able to communicate better and are smarter like Kristine or Heaven, but Kuya knew that Maymay will boost Edward’s confidence socially too as he becomes more comfortable with someone who apparently shares the same kind of craziness with him. I believe the Edward we love now really is the cheerful charmer of Germany because Maymay was able to pull him out of his shell. If he just stuck with Marco, sorry but in my opinion, he would’ve been just a teenager stuck with a raging hormone like his friend. Edward is smart, but he gets swayed by girls and romance just like any other boy his age. I think Maymay was able to influence him positively.

Jinri is the stereotype introvert: likes to be alone, wary of people especially of extroverts (like Maymay), quiet. I was surprised by this because her image as a DJ and sexy image model is so different from her Christian, introvert self in PBB. She said her image is very different from who she is. As an introvert, she admitted that being in a crowd can be overwhelming and she does not trust easily. However, with Maymay, she was willing to win a house for her. If that’s not telling of trust, I don’t know what is! Maymay was the only person Jinri opened up to when she started isolating herself because of pressure. She felt Maymay’s genuine feelings of sadness when Jinri and Nonong started joking about getting evicted which hurt Maymay as she didn’t want anyone of them to leave or give up the fight. Jinri is thought to be aloof by the other housemates which caused her to be nominated several times. However, it is apparent that Maymay and her are close even though they dont’ spend as much time with each other. Maymay, I believe, know Jinri’s limit/boundery for people interaction and she respects that. She is mature enough to understand that friendship is not about always sticking together. Kisses, on the other hand, seeks for it, so Maymay adjusts for her.

Nikko and McCoy also said that Maymay is able to adjust herself to both adult and teens to bond. She does not chose her friends. Of course, it is obvious who she spends more time with, but I observe again and again how the housemates are comfortable conversing with her. Even Tanner, whom the regulars said is very quiet, reserved saved for conversations with Cora and Edward, apparently became closer to Maymay in the last weeks of the show. His “kulit” was more obvious when his brother came in the house. It resurfaces when he is around Maymay, damn language barrier and all. Tanner broke his Instagram feed full of his pictures with a selfie of the two of them. Even if it’s just for show, I believe the actions he showed around her inside the house spoke volumes of how comfortable it was to be with Maymay.

Last note on this topic, 10 out of the total number of housemates combined this season voted for Maymay as the Big Winner which included Tanner, Jinri, Hashtags, Nonong, Thuy, Elisse, Ali, Luis, Jessie, Fenech. Intrapersonal intelligence at its finest!

LOYAL

Maymay and Kisses became best friends inside the house. Funny thing is, despite the closeness and sweetness the two show, their fans are at war on who is the better housemate. Several times, Kisses had issues in the house, but Maymay was always there to comfort and understand her. When Kisses was hurting because of Marco, she was there to comfort her. At some point, she even tried to push Kisses to Marco to cheer up her friend, but realizing it was not helpful, she played the ate card and advised Kisses that there would be more boys out there and she should wait. When Kisses started acting like a brat by getting moody, clingy, and guilt-tripping everytime Maymay was having fun with others, it caused a big rift. However, she decided to open it up to Kuya to try to find a way to fix it. She did not open the issue even to her closest housemates like Yong, Edward, or Nonong because it was a problem between her and Kisses. She didn’t want others to see Kisses in a bad light. Viewers bashed both Maymay and Kisses for being “sumbungera” and “brat”, respectively. However, based on Maymay’s story, the problem had been repeating between them even outside the house, it was happening inside the house again, so she just expressed her feelings about it. Maymay wanted to save the relationship, so she opted to forget the issue, but Kisses was cold to her. I personally wanted to slap Kisses with a trout, but eventually the problem was fixed. During the LDT task, it was revealed that Kisses was envious of Maymay being paired up with Edward and her talents. Viewers connected that this might be the root cause of why Kisses would suddenly get angry at Maymay for being loved by others. Actually, that is very painful for a friend to hear, isn’t it? It wasn’t Maymay’s fault in the first place people like her and her talents, why must she be responsible for what Kisses feels? But as the loyal friend she is, when Kisses revealed this to her (and appreciated her honesty), Maymay was hurt and she cried, but she accepted it and moved on. She just advised Kisses not to feel bad because it is part of growing up.

As Edward still has torns with Heaven (he confessed he likes her and said the same, but then when a suitor came in, she retracted leaving the boy broken-hearted), I think Maymay has also stayed away from Heaven when they went to the Outside World. Inside the house, Maymay said that she’ll be there for Edward if Heaven ever hurts him. And she made it a point not to spend too much time with Edward when Heaven and him were still in good terms because she didn’t want Heaven to think badly of their closeness or get jealous. She knows where to place herself when it comes to friendship. Now, knowing how Edward felt about hat whole ordeal with Heaven, and he obviously has become closer to her, she didn’t have a single video or picture with Heaven in respect to her dear friend.

Maymay once told Kisses that when she had a boyfriend, she refused to be kissed on the cheeks even when it was just part of a truth or dare game with her church mates. She knows where to place bounderies when it is needed for the sake of loyalty to the person she loved.

CONSISTENT, HONEST, FIERCE

To all her bashers, she fearlessly has addressed: “Bahala kayo sa buhay niyo, uy.” in a joking manner. Despite the humor-tone of it, you know she is dead serious about it. The statement is as prickly as how Cora would say, “I don’t care.”. When asked what she can say to bashers saying she doesn’t deserve to be the Big Winner, she had this retort: “Eh ano ngayon?” (So what?). Her expressions are so casual, yet so direct and leaves no room for argument. She doesn’t use long, flowery words to explain her side. She had always been transparent and consistent with her answers, so we know that she’s honest. She’s consistent with her views on love, being true to yourself, achieving dreams, and even the small details like her answers from before up to now are the same. When asked who is her crush, it’s always Enrique. Now, it’s EnriqueWard (Enrique and Edward). She’s honest. She knows lying will take her nowhere and as she said, being true to herself got her to where she is now.

What makes Maymay so relatable to people is her casualty. Despite being aware that she’s in front of the camera, her feet are raised when eating, she picks her nose, she has expressions similar to a curse when surprised, she’s a hardcore fangirl, she farts and does not ever conceal it, and she speaks her opinion firmly or carefully as the situation needs it. She’s the girl with many small dreams, independently living in another city apart from her family and doing small sidelines to help with expenses. She’s thin and she cries easily, but she is resilient like a bamboo.

DRIVEN and INSPIRING

“Maraming salamat dahil pinili n’yong maging bahagi kayo sa pangarap ko at matupad ang mga ‘to. Gusto ko lang sabihin sa inyo na ‘wag na ‘wag kayo matakot mangarap. Pangalawa, ‘wag na ‘wag n’yo kakalimutan, kung sa’n man kayo mapunta sa pangarap n’yo, ‘yung mga taong tumutulong sa inyo. Pangatlo, kung nasa dulo na kayo ng inyong mga pangarap, at kapag kayo ay nadapa, lagi n’yo lang tatandaan kung paano kayo nagsimula at kung bakit nasa dulo na kayo ng inyong pangarap. At ang panghuli, ‘wag na ‘wag kayong matakot magpakatotoo kung alam n’yo naman tama kayo, dahil d’yan kayo dadalhin ng inyong pangarap, patungo sa inaasam n’yong tagumpay. Maraming, maraming salamat sa inyong lahat.”

This was Maymay’s speech when she was declared Big Winner. Inspiring, isn’t it? Her humility, greatfulness and drive reflects in her speech and I’m sure a lot of people was awed by it. I wanted to cry if not for my mother who was there with me!

I’m glad that Maymay chose to come back to Kuya’s house after her lolo died. She shared that she has taught of abandoning PBB because she was devastated. The person whom she wanted to win for was gone, and she felt that it was meaningless. Nonetheless, she taught about the opportunity PBB presented, especially she was hand-picked by the celebrities to be the lucky housemate to come inside the house. That’s why she was the first of the teens to come in. It was like a foreshadowing or her being a glue/bridge of the other housemates to each other. When they had the domino task, she did not chose to get the flag to take do the big jump challange because she said she wanted to work hard on that tower to be able to give one more housemate a chance to be the lucky sun, may it be her or someone else. When the remaining six teens had a challange of putting balls in each others’ box as the one with the most balls would be nominated, she was determined to keep her ball empty or with less of them. Even though she had the least chance of being nominated with having the least number of balls in their boxes, she was not complacent. It was a task and she had to do her best. Which is why as an ate, she hit Vivoree and Kisses’ heads in annoyance when Viv stopped because she was getting emotional getting so many balls, and Kisses getting Viv’s balls to put in her box. Yeah, it was kind of noble for Kisses, but I found Maymay extra admirable because it cemented the fact that despite valuing frienship, she was aware of the competition and she viewed everyone had the same eye on the prize. She is not as competitive or as strong physically as Tanner or Aura, but then you feel her drive in accomplishing tasks that is aligned to her goal, of course, fairly at all times.

So there you have it. This long, long, long post I have for Marydale “Maymay” Entrata. I have so much well-wishes for this girl because I admire her so much. I hope that as she goes into Showbiz, she remains grounded, but as fun as she ever was. I hope she remains positive, thankful, and inspired everyday. Whether she ends up with Edward in the future or not, I know I’d be happy for the both of them.

I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to make a post like this for Edward, but probably. I do admire that kid very much, but to be honest, I think I’ve always been more of a Maymay supporter. Anyway, well-wishes to our baby boy, too!

Again, congratulations, Maymay!

Day 61: 03.02.17

Alright. As mentioned previously, I would also like to share thoughts on my current fandom here. Of course I had my outbursts in Twitter already, but the more organized thoughts will be composed here. So this will still be about Maymay and Edward, the ship I’m following now from Pinoy Big Brother.

Updates:
After winning the task to have seven people into the Big Night instead of the usual four, Kuya challenged the house mates with a Lie Detector Test. The challenge was open for anyone willing enough to be grilled and be judged with a machine. Meaning, there was an option not to go through it. Except for a set of housemates, everyone took the challenge. Yes, including Maymay and Edward.

Even before the actual airing, there previews showed Maymay being asked if she has feelings for Edward. To be honest, I found this question to be very invasive and a little too annoying already. I mean, I’ve had this issue of leaving Maymay alone with her thoughts and feelings for Edward. She’s not ready to say anything and I’m sure she has valid reasons not to admit anything, even if her action speaks otherwise. I guess, as a fan, I don’t want her to have a difficult time with Edward if they somehow become awkward after that. I don’t want them to be awkward with each other!

One of the reasons I love Maymay and Edward (as MayWard, whether romantic or as frinds) is that they have a special connection that everyone can see and feel, but we’re always left in the dark to question what is really there. There is thrill in not knowing everything, in knowing that there are some things that will be special only for the both of them. But as they have submitted themselves to Big Brother, people are open to interpret what they see and insist on their opinions, which the network is obviously banking on right now.

So this is the video of Maymay’s Lie Detector Test, which is actually not by a machine, but by the ex-housemates. Not a bad thing since intuition is so much better than any machines. My mom said that LDT machines are not accurate because if you get nervous just because of the question, you can get negative result even if you are telling the truth. So in my opinion, this is a better option. Besides, who else would know better than the people who’ve they’ve been with all these time?

So in the end, Maymay admitted that she has a “crush” on Edward. Haha! I feel that it’s already more than a crush, but she’s really making an effort not to mind the feeling so much. Maymay knows her priority and she is driven by her goal to be a Big Winner (without being plastic and pabebe ha, mind you) for her family, so romantic love has to wait.

Moreover, I think she’s still recovering from heartbreak over her 3-year relationship, so of course anyone would be hesitant to fall in love again. That’s why she said she’s scared. She’s scared to get hurt and that’s one very telling statement that she is still on the process of moving on. When she said, “Kung sasabihin ko pong gusto ko siya, gusto ko buo, hindi lang dahil love team ko siya.” I didn’t understand it easily. Fast forward to readings and other observations, what she meant was she didn’t want to say she likes Edward because she’s being swayed by her emotions at the moment. Which is actually really smart of her! They were inside the house, they always interact with each other, people always tease them to one another, they are being groomed as a “love team” by the network, and she’s still longing for that love she lost. Maymay doesn’t want to make Edward a rebound or a mistake because she treasures him and their friendship. That’s what she means by loving him whole-heartedly, romantically.

Despite this girl always being transparent with her emotions, she’s actually really smart. She’s emotionally intelligent which I think contributes to her creativity as well. Charming, charming lass.

The LDT had more questions about self-image (pagpaparetoke), thoughts on fame, comparisons to others, family issues, and genuineness in actions. Same topics with different set of questions were given to all the housemates, but out of everyone, Maymay was the only one who was able to make the nerve-wracking experience light and funny without lessening the seriousness and honesty of her answers.

Now, onto Edward’s LDT!

If there’s something I was thankful for this LDT is the chance for Edward’s side to be heard regarding Maymay. Since I have no boy experience, reading Edward is a bit of a challenge. I know he is very smart, he’s eloquent, he is wise beyond his age. He is sincere, but of course, we all have something we will conceal.

Of course, like Maymay, he was also asked about his feelings for her. However, the question started with if he found Maymay beautiful. I think this question was asked, so that Maymay’s bashers can shut up. I wasn’t in Twitter for MayWard until January, so I wasn’t aware that a lot of people had been bashing Maymay for being “pangit”. Again, as I said before, she is not. Her beauty grows on you, and when you start seeing it, it will stay beautiful and glowing every day.

So Edward basically broke the hearts of these bashers when he affirmed that he finds her pretty. The LDT agrees. What I found a bit odd was that it took a while for him to answer, “yes”. Either he was thinking if he was going to lie, or he knew where the question was leading to. This kid is very perceptive, so perhaps he was weighing in his mind if he was ready to admit whatever feelings he wanted to keep hidden for a while, if the choice was his. In regards to his answer, I initially was skeptic of it, but looking back, this boy was raised to be a gentleman, and he does not discriminate.

Way back during their edition, he said he wouldn’t mind dating a girl like Maymay because there’s nothing wrong with her when one of the housemates sarcastically used Maymay as an example of a girl Edward would dare go for in place of pretty blondes which he had liked in the past. I believe he frowns more on bad character than physical attribute. Maymay undeniably has a very admirable personality that compliments his, which he could be initially have been attracted to.

Later on, he was asked if he was physically attracted to her. He said yes, being a person of taste, who would miss admiring that face, the S line, and not to mention, the long legs! There was a clip during their Teen edition when Maymay and the other girls were practicing their walk for a beauty pageant task. When Maymay walked with her heels, clad in a short, denim skirt she normally would never wear (she’s more of a leggings, pants kind of girl), Marco and Edward high-fived on the side then continued to look at the girls or Maymay. So there goes your easy question.

His analogy about Maymay’s best quality is how he perceive her strong personality, the rawness of it as being beautiful. That in a world where people conceal to hide their ugly selves, she’ll proudly parade it because that’s how true she is to herself.

Of course, he was asked if he had feelings for Maymay, too. He said, “It depends on what way. Yes.”

Alright, I was kind of taken aback by this because I know Edward could’ve answered it sarcastically. Feelings of friendship, of family, romantically? It depends on what way, right? But alright, a Twitter user said that the questions depends on the context anyway, so Edward, being smart, would know what Toni meant with the previous questions and emphasized by the follow-ups which were about what he plans to do with the feelings or if he’s going to pursue her. So, if Edward was actually being sarcastic or telling the truth, well, the wolves are eating his bait as of now.

Still, I’d like to believe that he really likes her. Perhaps as a crush or a little bit more than that. He is infinitely fonder of her than anyone in the house, especially when Dream Team began. Perhaps, like Maymay, he might be being swayed by the pairing they are being pushed into, the confinement, the comfort, etc. He has no plans, like Maymay, what to do with the feelings because it is not his priority right now, he doesn’t know if he’s going back to Germany, or what could happen to the feelings after PBB. Like Maymay, he’s playing it cool for the both of them because he treasures her as much as she does him. So in this case, tama nga. MU na nga sila. 🙂

Other questions for Edward were if there was ever a time he became wild (I was not surprised he has punched someone before. Edward’s demeanor is kinda scary when serious, thus, he fit the military leader position so well), if virginity mattered to him and if he was still a virgin, if he has cheated, and being linked to another housemate (to question sincerity to Maymay). All of these he answered without batting an eyelash. Alright, perhaps he really is an open-book after all.

So after the LDT challenge was over, I was kind of worried that Maymay and Edward will be awkward with each other, especially the girl. Maymay not only admitted to Toni and the world she likes Edward, it was also a personal admission which I think shifted her world a little bit more. Anyway, they seemed fine later on, so that was a big relief. We’re just wondering if they have talked or not.

UPDATE! (As of 3.11.2017)

MayWard are out of the house! Yes, the big winner had been announced as you know. So of course, the videos are also out! Maymay now knows about Edward’s answer during the LDT. She said she didn’t know about it until then, so she can’t help but feel “kilig”. However, she also clarified they never talked about it. Edward was asked about his feelings again and he gave a definite, “Yes, sure. Yes!” Since words are unreliable, I will depend on the way he smiles, his eyes twinkled, and the little blush that crept his face when he said this as clarification.

They are as crazy together based on off-cam and BTS moments and videos. No awkwardness kahit inaasar pa rin sila ng mgat tao. Whatever happens, I will support these two beautiful beings, and I hope that no matter where their feelings for each other take them as friends or as lovers, they never lose connection.

Day 58:02.27.17

#WalangPasok due to transportation strike, so the government canceled classes today.

I hope something positive comes out of the protest, a conclusion that benefits everyone for a long time, not just for ceasefire.

On the other hand, it’s writing day! Writing of reports and updating blog posts. Like, right now.

HAHA!

 

P.S.

I was able to write these two drabbles in the middle of my report-writing. Hirap kapag na-distract ng muses! Kailangan pagbigyan!

MayWard (Maymay x Edward, PBB) angst, Maymay POV

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Day 42: 02.11.17

I’ll probably utilize this daily space to compile my Twitter thoughts about my favorite show right now: Pinoy Big Brother Dream Team. I’m actually a fan of one of the housemates, Maymay. She was the reason I started watching in the first place. I got hooked on watching her reactions and expressions to everything happening to her. Later on, I found out about “MayWard” a pairing made by fans of a potential love between her and Edward, another teen housemate.

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I also saw the compatibility actually. Their differences compliment each other. Though Edward is 16 and Maymay is 19, Edward can act and think beyond his years, while Maymay can be as youthful as she can be with her energy.

I’ll be compiling the other episode reflections some other time when I don’t have anything else to blog maybe. For the mean time, the following is a reflection I had of Maymay’s expressing low self-esteem about her looks and how she is not “fit” for him.

Worry 1:

Di rin ako nagandahan nung una kay Maymay, then the more I saw her, the more I found her pretty. She gets prettier the more you see her. It’s ironic that Maymay wants to be called “pretty” when she herself doesn’t believe she’s one. She is! Hindi sya “artistahin” (by Philippine society standard pwe!), pero maganda siya. Pinay beauty talaga.

I just find it kind of sad that of all people, she should know better that Edward will never judge her for her looks or English skills.  Of course, he likes pretty girls, what guy doesn’t? Same with girls drooling over sexy and handsome men. But preference for a girl friend is different. In the end, you push aside the initial physical attraction and simmer more on the compatibility of your personalities. And with these two, they click like locks, yes, even when their languages are not at par with each other.

I hope Maymay realizes that because I think that’s what Edward had been showing her all along. I understand the insecurity, we all have them, but I hope she has more faith in Edward’s capability to accept and love her more than what he can see and more than they can ever communicate in words. Hats off to this young lad whose principle in life is to be fair towards everyone and to be a gentleman. He is obviously well-raised.

I’m concluding that the (romantic) feelings is blooming, but Maymay is not ready to acknowledge it yet. Thus, the doubts. Sige lang Edward, prove Maymay wrong. If you really do like her that way, and I feel you really do even if you’re unaware or won’t admit to it, make her feel pretty through conversations because she is in love with conversations. May has mentioned that one of the traits she wants in a guy is a person who would never get tired of listening to her stories, especially because she’s so talkative! In the house, she’s always spending time with someone and looks very comfortable talking with just about any thing. With this, I think this is one of the reasons Maymay finds the language problem between her and Edward such a big deal. If she cannot express her thoughts comfortably to the person, the conversation falls short of a complete connection. However, Edward has improved leaps in understanding Filipino conversations and probably tries hard to adjust for her and for himself as a half Filipino, too. I’m not sure how much conversations they have, but I hope it’s more than we would ever know as viewers. We usually see them joking, so I don’t want to find out that that’s all between them.

Shit! I’m really cheering for these two. Not too soon sincen they still have to prioritize more important things in their life right now like work, studies, and family. But I hope they never lose that connection, that “magic” along the way.

Worry 2:

On MM’s perspective of beauty: She’s the typical teenager influenced by society and media’s image of beauty: maputi, matangos ilong, and has big boobs. She’s the opposite: morena, small nose, small boobs. She thinks she’s not pretty enough to be an artista or to be liked by the likes of Edward. He is aristahin (by Philippine standards): mistiso, pwede mag slide sa tangos ng ilong, has boobs (LOL). He’s smart and speaks well too. She can’t explain logical things well, and struggles in English.

Image compatibility-wise by this standard, Heaven and Kisses look better for Edward. They can communicate better too in English. And that’s what she was sharing with Mccoy and Jinri. Being an artista fangirl all her life, Maymay has this idea of beauty. That’s why she seeks for confirmation from Kuya that she is maganda, even though when complimented, I feel that she doesn’t believe it entirely. This is what society does to people: influence and damage their self-image. It’s sad.

Another theory where that self-image talk rooted from is when you like someone, insecurities surface. Like what Liza (Soberano) said about her character Cali, it’s not about what people can see, but what you feel when you’re hurt, when in doubt. No matter how beautiful you are, when a person makes you feel ugly, you think of yourself ugly.

Maymay questions her ability to sustain Edward’s interest with her limited ability to communicate in English. We all know they were able to surpass this hurdle, but then she’s suddenly in doubt again. With the added pressure of being a “love team”, it’s probably stressing her out that there’s nowhere to escape public scrutiny. They’re in the same house, people teasing her almost everyday (as we know), it makes her question feelings she might have been slowly and surely brewing by herself outside the house. But people are pushing her to rush, to figure it out already, say something already.

Before DT, Maymay was just happy as her crazy self inside the house. Now I see Maymay more guarded of her actions and feelings.She remains genuine, no doubt, but I couldn’t help but miss the old jollier Maymay, unaffected by fans’ expectations and bashers’ words.

I just hope she overcomes these internal battles. As a fan, I’m very worried about her. Like a real ate, I wanna protect her. For her sake, I hope the feelings (for Edward)–because I’m sure there is already though not intense yet–lessens, so she can focus more on her goal to win for her family. It’s already stressful getting by everyday with new challenges given by Kuya, and then there are the feels that makes it more challenging.

Maymay and Edward are still young. Ang love makakapaghintay yan. And I do hope they wait. Because no matter how I wish they don’t rush with their feelings, I really want Maymay and Edward to end up with each other. They make each other better and happy. Let’s present the world with more of these kinds of happy and positive people, yes?