Well, well, well. It’s a better day in class today. I really tried my best to shackle my inner demon and be as patient with my class as much as possible. I don’t want to be angry any more than I should be. I really don’t like being angry in the first place, and these are kids. Be more patient, Michelle.
Later in the day, I met with my former co-teachers in my previous school. It’s the same fun atmosphere and I really love these people.
On the other hand, I can’t help but feel a pang of envy.
You see, one of my former co-teachers had been prompted, the other one is still thriving in Singapore (She’s rich now, basically), the other one is going to Japan soon and has finished her master’s degree, and the other one is probably earning more than me with just a few hours of work (while I have to hustle two jobs to earn for myself). So I feel kind of stuck where I am while I’m the oldest of them all. I’m not really sure what I’ve done with my youth that I’m still here.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret what I’ve been through because I know they helped in forging the strength and (somehow) wisdom I have today, but I also can’t help but think that if I’ve been a little more focused, a little more cautious of my future, I could’ve had a good turn somewhere which will lead to a future (present) where I’m living a more comfortable life.
*sigh*
As Keane said, “Everybody’s changing and I don’t feel the same.”
Such is Life // 